Richie and I exchanged a look.
That evening, as the girls watched TV and Richie made spaghetti, I stood by the window, staring at the apple tree’s twisted branches.
Richie came up behind me, arms around my waist.
“If you want, Tanya, I’ll be there. You don’t have to do anything alone.”
I leaned back into him. “I just need to know, Rich. He was always so kind. He always left an envelope of cash during Christmas, just so that we could spoil the girls with candy.”
“You don’t have to do anything alone.”
“Then let’s find out what he left you. Together, if you want.”
My husband kissed my hair and then went back to plating the girls’ dinner.
I felt steadier.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. I wandered the house in circles, pausing at the back window. I caught my reflection, brown hair pulled into a fraying ponytail, eyes tired, pajama pants sagging at the knees.
It wasn’t the picture of a woman ready to dig up the past.
I wandered the house in circles, pausing at the back window.
I thought about the lessons my mother told me as a kid:
“You can’t hide what you are, Tanya. Eventually, everything finds its way to the surface.”
I wasn’t a messy person; my life ran on lists and calendars.
But the letter in my pocket made a liar out of me.
***
The next morning, I waited until Gemma and Daphne left for school and Richie had gone to work. I called in sick, then put on my gardening gloves, and walked out the back door, shovel in hand.
The letter in my pocket made a liar out of me.
I stepped into Mr. Whitmore’s yard, feeling like an intruder and a child all at once.
My heart thumped out of rhythm.
I crossed to the apple tree, its blossoms pale and trembling in the morning wind. Pressed the shovel into the earth. The ground gave easily, softer than I expected.
Before I knew it, I hit something solid, metal, and muffled by years of rain and roots. I knelt, hands shaking, and dug out a box. It was rusty, heavy, and older than anything I’d ever owned. I brushed off the dirt and unlatched the box.
The ground gave easily.
Inside, nestled in yellowing tissue, lay a small envelope with my name. There was also a photo of a man in his 30s holding a newborn, the hospital light bright above them.
There was a faded blue hospital bracelet, my birth name printed in block letters.
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