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For nearly a year, I worked on that dress whenever Janet wasn’t home.
I wanted to make Janet something meaningful for the vow renewal.
The garage became my secret workshop. I’d sneak out there late at night, the clack of my needles almost lost under the radio.
Sometimes she’d text: “Tom, where’d you vanish to?”
And I’d write back: “Just tinkering. Be in soon.”
Janet noticed the red marks on my hands, but never pushed. “You and your projects,” she’d say, shaking her head.
I started over more times than I could count.
“Tom, where’d you vanish to?”
Once, I pricked my thumb and had to cut out a whole section.
Anthony even caught me one afternoon and just laughed. “Dad, are you knitting?”
“It’s a blanket,” I said.
“Weird flex,” he said, and left it at that.
Truth was, every stitch felt like a lifeline. Janet had spent that year fighting through an illness I couldn’t fix. Some nights I’d find her curled on the couch, headscarf slipping, cheeks pale.
“Dad, are you knitting?”
She’d look up and pat the cushion next to her. “Come sit. You’re always on your feet, Tom.”
I’d sit with her, struggling to keep my heart from pounding.
“Are you doing alright, my love?” I’d asked, trying to sound casual.
“Tired. But lucky.”
That soft ivory yarn became a record of all my hopes. I’d hold up a sleeve to the light, running my thumb over the little M, S, and A I’d hidden in the hem.
Each detail was for her: lace from our old curtains, and wildflowers like her bouquet.
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