The day they took me away, Mia wrapped her arms around my waist and screamed.
“Don’t go, Lena! Please! I’ll behave, I promise!”
I held her so tightly that a staff member had to pry her from my arms.
“I’ll find you,” I kept whispering. “I promise.”
She was still calling my name as they put me in the car.
That sound followed me for decades.
My adoptive family lived in another state. They weren’t unkind. They gave me food, clothes, and a bed of my own. They told me I was lucky.
They also refused to talk about my past.
“You don’t need to think about the orphanage anymore,” my adoptive mother would say. “Now we’re your family.”
So I learned not to speak Mia’s name out loud.
But in my mind, she never left.
When I turned eighteen, I went back to the orphanage. Different staff. Different children. The same peeling walls.
I gave them my old name, my new name, my sister’s name. A woman returned with a thin folder.
“She was adopted shortly after you,” she said. “Her name was changed. Her file is sealed.”
I tried again years later. The same response.
Sealed file. No information.
Life continued. I studied, worked, married too young, divorced, moved, got promoted. From the outside, I looked like an ordinary adult woman living a stable, slightly dull life.


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