The question took him by surprise. His eyes met mine. Dark brown, surprisingly gentle for such a fearsome face. “I… I don’t know what I want, miss. I’m a slave. Usually what I want doesn’t matter.”
The honesty was brutal and ruthless at the same time. My father cleared his throat. “Perhaps you should talk in private. I’ll be in my study.”
He left, closing the door and leaving me alone with a seven-foot-tall slave man who was supposedly my husband. Neither of us spoke for what seemed like hours.
“Do you want to sit down?” I finally asked, pointing to the chair in front of me.
Josiah looked at the delicate piece of furniture with its embroidered cushions, then at her imposing figure. “I don’t think that chair would hold me, miss.”
“So, the sofa.”
He sat carefully on the edge. Even sitting, he towered over me. His hands rested on his knees, each finger like a small club, marked with scars and calluses.
“Are you afraid of me, miss?”
“Should I be?”
“No, miss. I would never hurt you. I swear.”
“They call you the brute.”
He winced. “Yes, miss. Because of my size. Because I look scary. But I’m not brutal. I’ve never hurt anyone. Not on purpose.”
“But you could if you wanted to.”
“I could.” He looked me in the eye again. “But I wouldn’t. Not with you. Not with anyone who doesn’t deserve it.”
Something in his eyes – sadness, resignation, a sweetness that didn’t suit his appearance – made me make a decision.
“Josiah, I want to be honest with you. I don’t want this any more than you probably do. My father is desperate. I’m not a good match for marriage. He thinks you’re the only solution. But if we’re going to do this, I need to know. Are you dangerous?”
“No, miss.”
“Are you cruel?”
“No, miss.”
“Are you going to hurt me?”
“Never, Miss. I swear it on everything I hold sacred.”
His sincerity was undeniable. He truly believed what he said.
“So I have another question. Can you read?”
The question took him by surprise. A flash of fear crossed his face. Reading was illegal for slaves in Virginia. But after a long moment, he said softly, “Yes, miss. I taught myself. I know it’s not allowed, but I… I couldn’t help it. Books are gateways to places I’ll never visit.”
“What are you reading?”
“Whatever I can find. Old newspapers, sometimes books I borrow. I read slowly. I haven’t learned well, but I read.”
“Have you ever read Shakespeare?”
His eyes widened. “Yes, miss. There’s an old copy in the library that no one touches. I read it last night, when everyone’s asleep.”
“What plays?”
“Hamlet, Romeo and Juliet, The Tempest.” His voice grew enthusiastic despite himself. “The Tempest is my favorite. Prospero controlling the island with magic. Ariel longing for freedom. Caliban treated like a monster, yet perhaps more human than anyone else.” He stopped abruptly. “Excuse me, miss. I’m talking too much.”
“No,” I said, smiling. I was smiling genuinely for the first time in this strange conversation. “Keep talking. Tell me about Caliban.”
And something extraordinary happened. Josiah, the enormous slave known as the Brute, began discussing Shakespeare with an intelligence that would have impressed university professors.
Caliban is called a monster, but Shakespeare shows us that he was enslaved, his island stolen, his mother’s magic ignored. Prospero calls him a savage, but Prospero has arrived on the island and claimed ownership of everything, including Caliban himself. So who is the real monster?
“Do you consider Caliban a character you can empathize with?”
“I see Caliban as a human being, treated as less than human, but still human.” His voice trailed off. “Like… like slaves.”
“I finished.”
“Yes, miss.”
We talked for two hours about Shakespeare, books, philosophy, and ideas. Josiah was self-taught; his knowledge was fragmentary, but his mind was sharp, his thirst for knowledge evident. And as we talked, my fear melted away.
This man was no brute. He was intelligent, kind, thoughtful, trapped in a body that society viewed and saw only as a monster.
“Josiah,” I said finally, “if we do this, I want you to know something. I don’t think you’re a brute. I don’t think you’re a monster. I think you’re a person stuck in an impossible situation, just like me.”
Her eyes suddenly filled with tears. “Thank you, miss.”
“Call me Elellanar. When we’re alone, call me Elellanar.”
“I shouldn’t, miss. It wouldn’t be appropriate.”
“Nothing in this situation is fair. If we’re going to be husband and wife, or whatever this arrangement is, you should use my last name.”
He nodded slowly. “Elellanar.” My name and his deep, gentle voice rang out like music.
“Then you should know something too. I don’t think you’re unfit for marriage. I think the men who rejected you were fools. A man who can’t see beyond the wheelchair, to see the person inside, doesn’t deserve you.”
It was the kindest thing anyone had said to me in four years.
“Will you do it?” I asked. “Will you accept my father’s plan?”
“Yes,” he replied without hesitation. “I will protect you. I will take care of you. And I will try to be worthy of you.”
“And I’ll try to make the situation bearable for both of us.”
We sealed the deal with a handshake, his enormous hand engulfing mine, warm and surprisingly gentle. My father’s radical solution suddenly seemed less impossible.
But what happened next? What I learned about Josiah in the months that followed. That’s when this story takes an unexpected turn.
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