The lamp beside her bed made her skin look gray.
Tears had soaked the pillowcase.
“Mom,” she whispered. “Please… make it stop hurting.”
There are moments when a mother stops negotiating with the world.
That was mine.
I sat on the edge of her bed and smoothed the hair from her damp forehead.
Her skin was cool, but her eyes looked fever-bright.
I told her we were going to the doctor the next day.
She shook her head weakly.
“Dad will be mad.”
I remember that more clearly than almost anything.
Not “Will I be okay?”
Not “What’s wrong with me?”
Dad will be mad.
The next afternoon, I waited until Robert texted that he had a late meeting.
Then I took the insurance card, Maya’s school ID, and the little folder where I kept her vaccination records.
I helped her into the passenger seat of our SUV.
