I stared at him.
“He asked you to give up your move?”
“He asked me to become your new supervisor. Call every day. Make sure you ate. Choose where you traveled. Decide when you’d helped other people enough.”
My knees hit the carpet before I realized I’d moved.
Daniel dropped beside me.
“That’s why we fought, Mom.”
“He told me you were going to tell everybody you were fine,” he added. “That you’d organize his funeral, feed everyone afterward, answer every phone call, clean the house, and make yourself useful until nobody noticed you were falling apart.”
I thought about the sympathy-card box I’d nearly carried out of the room five minutes earlier.
Daniel saw the recognition on my face.
“That’s why I got angry,” he said.
“But why leave?”
“Because he kept saying, ‘Somebody has to make sure your mother is okay.'”
Daniel’s voice rose.
“And I said, ‘Why don’t you tell Mom this yourself?'”
I pressed one hand against the carpet.
“What did he say?”
Daniel looked at me.
“He said you were carrying enough.”
I closed my eyes.
Of course he did.
Richard had said those words hundreds of times.
“Don’t tell Mom yet. She’s carrying enough.”
“I’ll handle it. Tisha has enough going on.”
“Let her sleep. She carries enough.”
Once, I’d thought those words were love.
Maybe they were.
But suddenly I heard something else inside them too.
A decision.
Made for me.
Daniel’s voice dropped.
“I told him he was doing it again.”
I opened my eyes.
“Doing what?”
“Deciding what you could handle without asking you.”
He wiped his cheek.
“Dad got angry.”
“What did he say?”
“He said he was dying and didn’t have time to argue.”
“And you?”
Daniel looked toward the door.
“I told him if he wanted you to have your own life so badly, he could start by letting you have your own answers.”
Then Daniel looked down at the pink dress.
“And that’s when everything got worse.”
I waited.
“I told him I loved you, Mom… but I wasn’t giving up my future to manage yours. He asked me to promise anyway.”
“And that’s why you left?”
“I was angry. And I thought if I stayed, he’d keep making me responsible for fixing something he should’ve talked to you about himself.”
