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The girls marched one after the other on the university stage.
We called Ava first.
She started crying before her name even finished resounding in the speakers. I watched her wipe her face on the sleeve of her black toga and laugh at herself halfway down the stage.
Then it was Claire's turn. My youngest, the unpredictable.
She spotted me in the crowd and waved both hands at me, as she did from the window of the school bus when she was eight. I answered with enthusiasm.
We called Ava first.
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Enfin, ce fut le tour de June.
Elle n’a pas souri, mais elle a traversé cette scène comme elle avait traversé toute sa vie, comme si elle portait un fardeau plus lourd que ce que nous pouvions voir. Quelque chose de plus lourd qu’un diplôme.
J’ai levé mon appareil photo. L’obturateur a cliqué. Ça aurait dû s’arrêter là.
Puis le doyen est revenu au micro et l’a tapoté deux fois.
« Il nous reste encore une présentation avant de conclure. »
J’ai baissé mon appareil photo.
Ça aurait dû s’arrêter là.
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Then my daughters, or rather my young women, came up together on stage, hand in hand, as they crossed the parking lots when they were five years old.
I felt my heart tighten, but I didn’t know why.
June took the microphone.
“Our father couldn’t be here today,” she said.
I felt like my stomach was falling through the floor of this room.
Daniel.
I felt a knot squeeze my chest, but I didn’t know why.
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They were going to talk about Daniel.
Twenty-two years of birthday cards he never sent, calls he never made, and now, the only day I was really there, they were going to pay tribute to the one who wasn’t there.
I felt the pain rise in my throat, as if it had waited for me. I thought I'd sit still, smile and let them do it if they needed them.
Ava slipped her hand into the sleeve of her dress and pulled out a piece of folded paper. Claire squeezed her hand against her mouth, and I saw her shoulders trembling.
I felt the pain rise to my throat.
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“We found the notebook,” June said. “The one in the kitchen drawer. »
I closed my eyes and squeezed the camera so tightly that I heard the plastic squeak. I have rethought about the gas station ticket, always folded in my wallet. I thought about Patricia, and all those birthdays where I sat at that wobbly kitchen table with a pen, writing to three girls who were already sleeping.
